I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
"I'm frighteningly lonely. It’s not easy at all, because the longer my grandma is gone, the more I miss her.
So I have one question.
If we can love someone so much how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know about separation well, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time I was also wondering is it possible that, we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all? That’s my loneliness.
I have lived with it now for 5 years, I know just how bad loneliness feels. I fear it wil continue to get worse.”
If I told you that this song was meant for you, would you believe me? It may not sound as beautiful as other songs You may not know that love songs couldn’t be written out If we didn’t have the feelings of love But for you sweetheart, it all came out easily
You may heard thousands of love ballads Some may touch your heart, Though they mean nothing more But you’ll know when you listen to this song It was meant just for you You would know by heart what I meant And we would be there for each other
Let the song play while we are walking together on the path, All I hear is just the voice of you and me We'll be together for so long As mentioned in the poetry That where there is love, there is always hope Your love has lightened up my heart You are my destiny
Love holds up many truths to look for And I have wasted my lifetime searching for them But not so long ago, I realized when I am close to you If my life is a rhythm You're the beautiful lyrics to this song that has touched my heart
Finally his apartment is ready and I offered help to help him move into his new abode. Along with his brother we traveled about 5 times to and fro from his old room to the new place just to transfer all his stuff. (He has more pairs of shoes than my mum and sis both added up!) It was pleasant spending the afternoon with him, more so when his brother left in the evening, leaving just us two trying to figure out how to assemble some pieces of furniture we bought earlier. There were teases here and there as we talked and joked but at times there are moments which were very silent. I wished I could just pour my heart out but I held back. I wished I could hug him but I feared that he wouldn't want to hug back. I could also sense that he was checking me out head to toe when I wasn't looking, probably as much as I realised he is way hotter now. Ah, the sexual tension. We cleaned and sorted the place in the evening until I got a call which left me no choice but to leave. I told him I needed to go and he instantly offered to walk me out to my car but my stupid brain decided to think otherwise and told my mouth to utter words that rejected his offer.
'It's okay. I can go down myself. See you again.'
And that was it. I wanted to give him a hug but before I had the guts to do so, the elevator's door opened, I walked into it, saw him turn his back and walked away as the elevator's door closes.