Will you find a new job to go to first, before quitting the old one? (which makes more economic sense, especially if you need money for house payments) Or just going to quit the old job anyway, and then look for something else? (which is what I have a habit of doing :o\ )

Yeah, this is good, you're moving on and catching up ... as with the haircut, that also makes you sexier and more attractive. Jay had better watch out! ;oP
 

I'm happy to see that you're taking proactive steps to regain back what you've lost by further improving yourself...

You know that I look up to you for all your courage. I doubt that I'll be able to do the same things you are at the moment, but I'm sure you'll be able to.

Hang in there till the storm is over :)
 

Just hit the gym at 6am and again after work if you have the energy. After a while, your body will stop paying attention to the whirring of your mind.Besides, that dose of post-workout dopamine is very helpful when you are going through these crappy times.

Keep your chin up.

can
 

hav not been reading ur blog for awhile. Am sad to hear wat had happened. But I know u r coping n managing well. I've recently start my new life, and its better than ever. Been there done that kinda thing. Move on and improve ur life. There'll come a day u will be truly happy and look back and laugh. If u need a fren to talk to, just let me know. -www.osmansany.com
 

When a guy left you, they are unlikely to turn back again. Be strong and start your new life with pride. Don't turn back to the guy who don't appreciate you. I am sure there are many waiting for your love. Good Luck

Pat
 

Well and good! Keep it up! Time to bounce back and take on te world!

...I think I'm trying too hard again. ^^;;
 

I feel a bit awkward leaving a message here, seeing as I share a nickname with your ex and all, but still.

I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through such a difficult period. In fact, reading through your most recent posts - especially that awful phone conversation where he broached the subject of breaking up - brought back a lot of bad memories for me. I've had my share of painful breakups (yes, despite being SO fabulous!) and I know exactly how you feel right now.

And I also know that it'll pass. It always does.

Nothing much I can say except to cheer you on as you ride this out.

-hugs-
 

Congratulations on the house! That is a big step and I am very happy for you!!
 

ru - I guess I'm tired. I need a rest. Quit first, find later. A risk, yeah...but willing to take that.

yw[2k] - Sometimes I don't know where I get all the courage. Maybe it's from Jay. I guess when we're being pushed to the edge we have not much of a choice. I'm not as strong as you think I'm. Every now and then I still break into tears.

can - Yes it help. As much I as want to hit the gym at 6, I can't. Only can do so after work. I just put my mind and everything into the workout. Feels good after that.

osman - Thanks mate. Having a friend to talk to is always good. I need that but then again no matter how much you guys advise it's still up to me to take actions in the end, and that for me is, very hard.

Pat - I always believe that he's my first and last love. Even if they are others who are waiting for me, I'm not sure if I can love as much as I loved Jay.

ban - Yeah, only if I have a trampoline underneath me. He has Jason now, who do I have?

jay - You're always fabulous. Thanks. :) I would rather be the one who understand how it feels than the one who's feeling it now.

will - I'm excited as well. The house is meant for two. I have so many plans already for the house. Just awaiting him to fill the space. Yes call me naive and stupid, I'm waiting.
 

Haven't been reading your blog for a long long time. Well, I am glad that you are taking steps to love yourself a little bit more. As difficult as it can be now, remember, one day, that someone will always be just around you....

Dont keep the phone too near to where you are sleeping. The signal's not good for us.