I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
Why do birds suddenly appear Every time you are near? Just like me, they long to be Close to you. - The Carpenters
It's only been one week we are apart and I already felt the distance. We call each other everyday, sometimes a few times a day but we text each other most of the time to save cost. It's definitely good to get to talk and discuss about our daily happenings but I still feel inadequate because I don't get to see him. More importantly, I don't get to do things together with him, like dining, playing sports and going to the movies or just simply going out to get the morning newspaper from the man at the streetside.
It's different now. I know that this is not the first time he's being posted somewhere and I should be getting used to it but I'm not. I tell Jay that I'll be fine. I'm fine and doing okay but I just miss him. The thing is I miss him most especially during the weekends. I work on weekdays and often late so I guess time flies when I work. Does that mean I should be occupied with things to do so I'd not miss him much? But why not miss him when I love him? I should always be thinking of him. Or is my dose of longing to see him too much?
Just so true it happens this weekend. When you are struck with boredom you begin to think of the person you love most. I didn't have any plans and just stayed home watching tv, going online, watching tv, going online and watching tv. In between online surfing I managed to have an online chat with Jay. I was happy but I wish I could be happier with Jay beside me. I know I might sound like a baby with a wet diaper who needed his mommy but I'm just being me. Is this how a distant relationship works? Missing each other this much? Or are there other ways for this kind of relationship to work without compromising our devotion to each other?
Comments:
If only i know what to say... I've never been in love. See, consider yourself lucky you have at least someone to think of and knowing someone thinking of you every hour. Me, i think to myself... Where is my guy gonna come? Now that i have something to be depressed over. I've been single and dateless for 3 years. *sic*
Kev - Sometimes Jay tells me that I worry too much too. Yea, I should be happy knowing that I already have someone thinking about me everytime. You shouldn't be depressed...being single isn't a very bad thing after all. I'm sure there is someone out there who is in a situation worse than we are and you should know that fate is on the way...and it's worth waiting for.
Yea true. Being single isn't as bad, i have my freedom especially. I flirt around and do things freely as i wish not having to report to my bf. It's the intimacy i miss. Well, i guess you win some you lose some.
Yea thats what i wrote in my blog. When the time/person comes, it's gonna be so worth it i'd be overjoyed. Just enjoy the sad moments of singlehood first. Hehe.