I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
Though short, the time spent together was fulfilling. After 2 weeks or so, Jay will be flying back to Sabah for work next Monday and will be back again in a month's time.
I had to get some camping equiptments for my mountain hiking trip so Jay accompanied me to buy the stuff I needed. The first time we went it was closed and we went back to the same shop the next day. Things didn't turn out well the longer I stayed in the shop. Not that the customer service was terrible but when choices are aplenty, I often can't make up my mind.
Jay is the kind of guy where it's either Yes-buy or No-don't buy. Me, being one who is indecisive, took a rather long time to choose between Item A and Item B. And as I took my time to walk along the aisle of display to decide I chance upon Item C.
'Item C is pretty good too.' I told myself.
Instead of 2 items to choose from, I then had 3. For Jay, he would already have taken Item 1 for he liked its colour. Easy for him. For me, I had to consider its price and functionality as well. As for the 3 items concerned, there weren't many differences but I just needed to think over many many times because I believe that when I fork out a few hundred bucks I want to ensure I'm buying something worthy. The more I asked for Jay's opinion, the more restless he became and in the end he was frustrated that I took more than an hour. We didn't speak much later. He was mad. I felt bad. However on the way home in the car, Jay took the initiative and put is hand over mine and held it tight. I smiled.
On another occasion, we planned for a dinner together at a somewhat exclusive restaurant. There was tension prior to dinner and again, we didn't speak. Not a word. We spoke only to the waiter when ordering food. When the food arrived, we ate as if we are just alone by ourselves. I just wanted to leave the table because Jay would utter not more than a few words when I tried to start a conversation with him.
Yeah. Okay. Yes. No- these are the only words known to his vocabulary. Other times, he'd just nod his head.
I was excited when Jay invited me to dinner and really looked forward to it. Unfortunately, I always feel that whenever I look forward to certain events with much anticipation, it always turns out bad with dissapointment. Always. That is why I learned not to put too much expectation anymore. There is one chinese saying that says 'The higher the expection, the higher the dissapointment'.
Halfway dinner when the tension was gone we spoke again. All is good after that. Sometimes, I think it is really silly to behave in such way. Almost childish and very immature. Having a big ego hurts. We must learn to let it go. This is one thing Jay and I want to change.