I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
I find it amusing reading in the news, sometime back, there was this trend where people seek annulment from their spouses via text messages on the mobile phone. We laugh at people for being silly but when you're the one getting such message, it is no longer funny.
I think we should slow down. Give each other some quiet time. I need to think what to do next too.
It's been good since Jay's back and he's got many things going on, meeting up with his relatives, friends and colleagues. Going to social gatherings, dinners and to the gym frequently to make up the lost opportunities when he was far away last time. Despite that, I wanted to be with him as often as possible and sometimes I might have gone overboard with my high demands that could have caused him feeling emotionally tired. I don't and never meant to intentionally just hold him to myself but what I want is for us to be able to share our lives together...I want to be part of his life and him in mine. I want not only to know where he's going for dinner and with whom but I want to join too if possible. Right now, I believe that there are ways to mend things and being honest in communication is very important. Avoiding any problem in a relationship with not help solve it and I truly hope we can open up to ourselves, talk and understand ourselves even better.
I was so afraid that things might have taken a bad turn and I called him on the phone.
I just want some time for myself and to think about our relationship.
It's best to meet after the festive season.
But that's a long time and I fear for the worst. Tears started to build up in my eyes.
Not too long after that he came back with another message.
Don't worry dear. Everything will be fine. I love you.
I'll wait for you dear. Hope to hear from you very soon when you feel better. Love you so much.
Comments:
Aw, Kay, I can imagine how you feel, my instincts would be much the same. (hugs)
But yeah, you do need to cut Jay some slack just now. He's been away travelling and working a lot, by the sound of it, and he obviously needs to catch up with loads of things now that he's back home and to regain his balance. He needs to be able to get on with that by himself, and having you around would be a distraction (albeit a delicious one).
I'm sure he still loves you, and trusts your love enough to know that you can wait a few days for him.