Hi again. For once, I thought you have been hiding in reclusion or trying to think things through alone. Happy now to know that it's just a connection problem!

Well, in life, of coz everyone has his/her own fair share of problems. In love. In family relationships. At work. With friends. You name it, the list goes on and on.

Before, I was a bit like you --- asking --- why can't there be a 1st and ONLY love? Why can't there be my 1st and ONLY job? Why can't I just buy this ONE house and live here forever?

Alas, the answer is not what I nor we like to hear. Many a time, we need to go through some sort of hurdles (or failures as some may term it) to learn our lessons. Lessons make us wiser. And stronger. If we were all gonna hit it out in the first instance, and that lasts forever (whatever it is, be it a job, a relationship, a car etc), then we will only be having ONE experience. And that is not good in life especially in challenging times like this. We will be dead wood before you even know it, if we have only ONE experience in everything!!!

I am a perfectionist, I admit. I demand and hope for the best. But I have also learnt to accept that while being a perfectionist is good in most cases, in life, we need to give in some times. As long as what we give in does not make us compromise a lot, then I think it is ok. There. I do not ask for ONE and ONLY now. As long as I have my blessings to count, it doesn't matter what comes along.

So you ask - is there such thing as eternal love? Of course there is. Perhaps you have not found it yet. No one can tell whether you will find it or when. Only time will tell. Whatever it is, we take life one day at a time when it comes to such matters. If we get it, we rejoice and be thankful. If we do not get it, at least we are alive and kicking, and still have our friends and family around us and we are already hundreds of times better off than some who are ridden with lots more problems than us. Or we still have Someone Who Cares. :) Just joking!! :P

I don't really wish to sound like Agony Unc, but I am feeling I am beginning to sound like one!!

Anyway, back to your job --- if you CAN support yourself without a job for some time, then resign by all means. If you need the money to go on living and to pay for your commitments, then resign only if you have found another job. This I speak from experience. Not again, you may say. Sorry loh, I just happen to live my life in a fast forward mode (not my wish though), and so, I have had to go through a lot more than what normal people of my age did. So, I have experienced this a bit, and that a bit, here and there...something like rojak, u know. Ok. Gotta sleep now. Have to attend to an appointment early tomorrow morning that will put an extra 2k into my paycheck. Need it now for the new house. :) Good night.
 

Its too early in the morning to sound all zen and crap but unseen forces aren't as strong as real people. Only you can decide how you want your life to go... Chin up & look forward! *hugs*
 

someone who cares - Glad to hear from you again. I'm beginning to see a decline in the response from the people who have been constantly telling me to be positive and move on with my life. I think I've let my readers down. They're probably thinking that I'm pathetic because I still hold on tight to my relationship with Jay. They're probably tired of seeing me still dwelling upon the breakup.

'Stupid Kay still doesn't want to let go.'
'Why are you still with Jay?'
'It's his loss, not you.'

I'm keeping my chin up but at the same time I believe that this is not the end of our relationship yet.

aj - I already know what I want and it means alot to me to have you and everyone else supporting. :) Thank you again.
 

well kay... I understand wat u felt now.. but sometimes we just really need to let the past go... I think if he's the one in your life, no matter wat, one day he will come back.. otherwise he is just another rainy days in your life..
 

Hmm....I think the decline in people responding has nothing to do with whether they think you are pathetic or not. Or whether they are already tired of all your ramblings or not.

Perhaps they have all gone on holiday for Easter? Perhaps they would like to let you think things through on your own without giving too much comments that would cloud your brain?

Anyway, don't just make any assumptions about the decline in response loh, ok? Not good for you loh, right? When I don't get any response to my blog, I just take it as maybe people have no comments? Maybe they are fine with what I said?

People who understands the mechanics of a relationship would understand why you are still clinging on to Jay. Of coz, we don't like it, but if you still wanna cling on, who are we to say no? Who are we to say - Kay, let go of your hands...NOW! :P

It is not easy to let go of a relationship, more so if it involves the one that has really caught your heart, one that has truly swept you off your feet and one that is extremely captivating. So, it takes time. Perhaps in time, you will proudly inform that you are well over him...

There was one person whom I could not let go of, for such a long time, and I was like, willingly drowning in torture and suffering in silence, as I felt it was worth it.....but after three long years, I felt that I should end all those rubbish, and it was just a waste of my time hoping, and I felt that person is truly not worth my time.

Some people call it sour grapes, i.e. they are sour when you can't reach or eat it. Some people call it healing, i.e. healing from a bad experience. But whatever people call it, it was a natural process of recovering from the hurt. Some take a week, some a year. Others maybe more.

So, in short (finally!!), whether you still wanna cling on with hope, or wanna move on ahead (and forget about some pesky little prick who can just drop you like that without batting an eyelid when it was only a month ago that they said in bed you are the most important person in their lives) it's your choice and people would (and should, la) respect that.

Not easy leh, Kay. But stride on. There's a silver lining in every cloud. I always believe that, and so far, it has been proven to be quite true, even in my hardest times. :-) Have a good Sunday.
 

ceusm - Rainy days or not, there'll be sunshine after that. :)

someone who cares - I'll always take into consideration every words you say. Anyway, enough about me. How's your extra 2K appointment? :)
 

Heh. Of course you still have a 'relationship' with Jay, it's just the nature of it is changing and growing, because you're both living beings.

You can think of it as 'changing your grip' rather than 'letting go altogether', if that helps. :o) *hugs*