I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
Everyday I Wake Up With Hope That Things Will be Better
Jay's been calling me while at work, just quick check on how I'm doing. Since we turn on our messengers on the PC while at work, he would prompt me a message and then we would chat a little, basically with him asking about my day, at the same time telling me about his plan for the day and ensuring that I won't stay too late at work. It's nice to hear him tell me little details like yesterday, he told me about a funny dream he had when he was a kid, and today he told me that he wanted to get a pair of new sneakers and a sports jacket and asked for my opinion. It feels great to be able to be involved and be part of his life. On the other hand he also told that he's been meeting Jason for dinner. Maybe he needs his coaching and advise for his test soon but I really feel uneasy about it. Always asking myself what could they be talking about during dinner? Where would they go after that? I know I'm paranoid but things can happen fast; have two guys spending time together often and they become closer.
I'm always thinking of you Jay.
I remember when I was away for a short trip last time we would call each other at night and I would walk out to the balcony of my room to speak to you. After that I would gaze at the moon, thinking of you and hoping that you're looking at the moon and thinking of me too.
My feelings for you will never change.
Comments:
Hi guys,
Well, i've anonymously following your blog for quite sometime. Somehow your relationship inspired me of the ability of having a successful g-relationship. (i've been dating for 10 months now) And it keep me going too ..
Now, i feel sorry reading your recent posts, and i hope you guys will come up stronger regardless the decisions gonna be.
Hugs. wings_alert (i'm not wingedman, so happen my nick also wing la)
As much as I'd like you to hold on to the hope that he will return, I think you should also start thinking of yourself for the moment. Unfortunately pining for a guy we can't have doesn't solve anything. Sigh.