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I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.

I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.

I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.


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Saturday, April 08, 2006

I Still Have So Much Feelings For Him

I asked a girl friend on mine out today for a movie. I didn't know what to do on a weekend. My first weekend without him. She wanted to watch Ice Age 2 but I suggested When A Stranger Calls instead because I wanted to keep the good movies for Jay. After that we went shopping and we walked passed a shop that Jay and I used to frequent. We joked and had good time talking. She knew I was sad over something and wanted to know more. I know she wanted to help but I fear that telling her my story would freak her. She doesn't know of me being gay. And I don't want to burden her with my problem. Everytime she sees me down and quiet, she would go: No! Don't frown. Cheer up.

We spent almost 8 hours in the mall and when we were about to leave, I bumped into Jay and Jason. I smiled at Jay, happily, and tried to do the same to Jason but he didn't quite respond well and I don't know whether he didn't like me being around Jay or he's embarassed to see me. As much as I like seeing Jay smiling back at me, but seeing them together hurts like a knife stabbed into my heart. This is the first time I see Jay walking with another person instead of me. Then my eyes turned wet.

I took out my phone and sent him a message telling him how much I missed him.

He replied not long after that, probably in secrecy without Jason's knowledge, telling me that they were going to the movies and asked me to take care myself because it was raining heavily outside.

posted at 10:24 PM

Comments:
the heartache!

how can jay be so cruel...
 
be strong.
 
Life still move on and be strong.
 
kelphin - It's a dog eat dog world I guess.

bravingkl - I think my life is having a big turn right now. So many things happen in such a short span of time. I'm quiting my job soon, getting a place for myself, looking for a car, meeting new people and staying positive.

lifebook - Yes indeed. Though with Jay I would be much stronger.

陈恳 - With the support from you guys, I will make it.

jakeandtroy - I want to still have a chance and not be in pain. Thanks for staying with me.
 
Shit, that's so fucking selfish.

He's really a useless leech. Great guys don't leave their partners when their partners do not meet up to expectations. They help their partners progress, step by step. They hold their partner's hand and lead them to the right way. The way that they want their partners to trod along.

In this case, a selfish bimbo (yeah, bimbo -- one who looks damm gorgeous, I admit - even if it is just a pic from the side, but have no principle at all) has chosen to leave his partner who has gone through thick and thin with him just so that he can have another one who might just meet up a little more to his expectations. And of coz, one who could be a little sexier, or hunkier, I guess.

Good thing that this happen now. Imagined if this happened a little longer from now. You would be more hurt. Good that this happens now, so that you only suffer this much. Imagine the suffering and torture you would be going through if this were to happen say, 10 years into the relationship.

There is no turning back, Kay. Even if he were to come back to you, of coz you want it, but the trust is not there anymore. It will just not be the same. He has done it once, and he will do it again, even though he may say it is a mistake, and he has seen thr truth or whatever shit that may come out from his smelly deceiving mouth.

As the chinese say -- leng jai mou boon sum ( cute guys are not faithful). I didnt want to believe that. But now, it seems like I have not much reason left to refuse to believe that.

Take care, Kay. From what you have written, although I dont know you well, you are a nice person. Dont let this hurt too much.
 
someone who cares - You're one of the few people who writes long post to me, detailing examples and guidance in hope that I can move on. I don't know you but I know you mean good and I will take up some of your advices. It has been helpful to have support from you guys knowing I didn't have anyone to turn to. Thanks again.
 
Hi again.

I thought you would be so angry with what I have written that you didn't even wanna reply or comment.

After writing what I needed to say, I suddenly realised that I might have been too harsh on my words, without realising that you were (& are) still hurting.

I also didn't know whether my frank opinions (most of which are quite against your so-called better half, although I wish they weren't) would make you one angry boy and would never want a comment from "someone who cares" again.

Anyhow, glad that you see some point. Not all I have said are workable or useful. They are just from my experience or what I have encountered or seen, just to share a bit with you.

I also don't know you well, but from what I have read, you are a nice guy, albeit a bit too sensitive and emotional. But that is not necessarily a bad thing. So assuming that you are a nice person, and being hurt like this makes me sad, and being a sucker for making people happy, I was actually trying to help alleviate (however little it may be) any sadness that you may be facing.

Congrats on the new house. I have also just bought a new house. What a coincidence! :-)
 
someone who cares - Why is it that most of us are telling from their experience and what they have encountered? Is it common to have at least a failed relationship in our lives? Why can't we live happily ever after? Is there any couple out there that can prove that there really IS such thing as eternal love?

You have been really helpful as a listener and of course, you are someone who cares. I'm not angry. Just dissapointed with most of us for letting go a relationship so easily. Would like to hear from you again. :)

I think everyone is rushing to buy a house. Properties getting more expensive by the days.
 
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