I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
I went to see Jay perform today. He was nervous albeit not his first appearance but it's somewhat new to him still. Practice makes perfect. And that's why he did quite well and things went pretty smooth for him. Furthermore, he performed longer compared to last time and that's an achievement.
Remember, more eye contact with the audience next time.
Question: I went to support him and therefore I should be the easy-going and carefree one, while he should be the one worrying but I ended having my heart trembling instead while taking the lift up to the venue. For some reasons I worried for his performance. Feared that he wouldn't do well. Or was it excitement I felt? That feeling of Oh-I-can't-wait-to-see-he-shines?
Hey Kay.. while I applause your effort in supporting Jay, remember to do it for yourself too... Sometimes I feel that it's easier to move on when u cut all ties. ;) But you know what is best for yourself. ;)
what is jay working as anyway? i sort of always have the impression that he is a model. :\
well i think it's just this feeling of not seeing him in person for a while. maybe you are excited to see him or anxious of his performance. emotions are weird things to put specifications to. when you think you are feeling so because you are nervous, there is actually a bunch of subtexts underneath. :)
kay, Remember charity begins at home. Last night while flipping through the channels, I stumbbled into an episode of 'Sex in the city'. There was one line 'Samantha' said to her boyfriend- I love you too but I love me more- I think jay is doing just that and you should do that without any delay. I know its easier said than done but you should try.
ça va pas la tête - :) I know what's best. Thank you. ;)
yw[2k] - I'm already hurted but in the process of healing now. It can only get better, trust me. I need the hope. ;)
celeste - I think it's a mixture of all. My feelings are telling me something but I'm just not able to comprehend it completely yet. Jay's got a permanent job and this one where he struts his stuff is only part-time, but he's putting lots of effort into it and constantly asking for advice/feedback and I'm glad I could help.
imphaldiary - I've always been selfless and I agree that sometimes people take advantage of that so I'm now trying to put myself first above all, except love. With love comes happiness and that conquers all. It's all about ME now.
ban - I'm just being myself. Holding on to what I believe in and living by my life priciples. :)
Perhaps time will tell, sooner or later. I just want to stand by him.