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I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay  Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay  Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
jayandkay [at] gmail [dot] com
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
The World Is Upside Down. (He's at fault but I'm begging him) Once, a few months ago, I saw a lovebite on his neck as I sat next to him in the car. I questioned him but he kept quiet. I was furious as I knew what happened. I wanted him to tell me but he remained silent. Few hours later he sent me a message: Don't be angry at me. Don't be dissapointed with me okay? I will explain to you tonight. He told me that night. I was devastated. He had a fling with a man he met at the local swimming pool. Whether he brought him back to his place or they did it in his car, I'm unsure. He told me he met this guy at the pool who didn't have any transport to return home so he offered him a ride. I would want to know why he acted that way but I couldn't bear hearing it. When he does something like that, he would always be defensive about it and only talks or apologizes about it at a much later time. Why not on the spot? He needs to take time to think of a better reasoning? Make up another story to cover the real one so not to hurt that much? I always think that if you need to explain your wrongdoings later but not when asked to, the sincerity is gone. Cute goodlooking guys. Sexy hot bods. Who doesn't want? Everyone has tempatations. Me too. But we deal with it! You don't just say you can't resist it, then indulge and only say sorry later. Then there was another incident where he wanted to secretly go to Genting with Kent, the guy whom he bought a condominium from last year, but told me he was going with his relatives instead. I found out just a day before his departure and his reason was that he didn't want me to worry and think falsely of his actions. Apparently it was Kent birthday and he invited some of his friends and Jay to celebrate it there. He didn't want to let Kent down and pull out last minute as Kent has booked and paid the hotel room so he went ahead with his plan. He came back after the weekend to tell me about the trip. I had doubts. If only he had told me the truth much earlier. At least he felt sorry. Just days ago, Wednesday, I found out through a gossip talk with a friend, A, that his friend C, had been contacting this guy, P, he met in a chatroom from Gay.com. C and P, have been communicating on the phone via SMS and even shared photos of themselves in the nude. A told me how excited his friend C was as C is single and finally found someone he likes. And as we continued chatting and all happy for C, P's name was mentioned and suddenly all seemed so coincident. I found out P is Jay. Jay sent C full frontal pictures of himself. They exchanged pics. C was looking for singles. Jay told C he was single. Jay wanted to meet C to have sex and even invited him over one night but C couldn't make it. Why? When I confronted Jay, he denied at first but with the proof I had, he got even more defensive. I didn't sleep with him ok! Say what ever you want, as long as I know didn't sleep with him. We didn't speak and meet for 2 days. In the end I was the one again who made the move. I went to see him. So that we could talk about it. He didn't want to. I was shouted at for being intrusive. I knew that was not a good timing because he had to prepare for a stage appearance just 2 more hours later. Can't we talk for just 10 minutes? I want to patch things up and make it work. No. Don't disturb me. Please leave. I didn't want to budge. I wanted us to sort this matter. Don't you think what you did is wrong? Don't you ever think of the consequences? How would you feel if I were to do this to you? He just remained silent but I could see he was becoming agitated. Don't you care for me anymore? I wish I won't. Can you leave me please. OK. But I want to talk through this ok? Will you call me tonight? He kept silent. His eyes frown. I sayang you dear. I said that as my tears rolled down my cheeks. I gave him my hand for him to kiss. He gave a peck in return. He never does that when we argue. Somehow I felt peace. That night he sent a message: I'm on my way to work now. Rushing. I'm sorry dear. Promise won't do it again. I love you. I called him to tell him I'd prefer him to tell me that to my face. He said he couln't do it. Labels: Our Lives
Comments:
somehow i start to realise that for a gay relationship to stay longer, tolerance playing a very important part. As well as blinding our own eyes and not to know what ever happens around.. Although it is a bit pathetic but this is what I get for past few relationship..
And actually this situation happened to me with my ex-bf-Gary before when i found out through his phone sms where he and this guy is planning to meet out to have sex on weekend. I started to question, and he said he never have sex with this guy and get angry of me for accused him of being unfaithful... In the end i'm the one have to say sorry and patch up the things with him.. but after all these, me and him still not works since I already don't trust him anymore... Anyway all I can now is if you think you can accept such relationship and you think you are happy, just go on... And the problem will always persists.. It is soo hard to change a man...
Hard for me tos ay this but I think it all depends on how much you can tolerate. I doubt he's ever going to change ( not anytime soon anyway ) so if you intend to stay with him, I think you will have to shift your paradigms a little.
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