I have always wanted to start a site. I wanted to talk about my life but I contemplated. Then I met Jay. Then I wanted to start a site for us. But I procrastinated. More than two years later, this is what I have now, a humble beginning. Just like any couples, we have been through many good and hard times together and this is one reason what this site is for: to put down our story in writing. So that this blog will witness our existence and hopefully we can flip through the archives one day and laugh at the silly things we did and be touched by Jay's heroic deed. Hi, I am Kay, we are boyfriends and this is the our story.
I'm Kay
Male. Smart and sentimental. 26yo. Enjoys movies (and porn) and reality shows. Sleeper. Uptight. Likes Robbie Williams. Has been to Singapore. Ogles at men. Just wants to be happy. Prefers to wear boxers. Selfless.
I'm Jay
Male. Sexy and studly. 29yo. Loves sushi and everything meat. Swimmer. Forgetful. Likes House music. Travels world over. Ogles at Kay. Want to be rich but not necessary famous. Likes not to wear underwear. Selfish.
Friendship is supposed to grow stronger, last longer. Barely only 3 months after an accident, he is called to go home. I wished I could have known him better and should have kept in touch with him these last few days but my work tied me down so I only spoke to him just 2 days before he passed away. I regret and hate myself for not knowing my priorities.
His sister passed me a personal note written by him.
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Hi sweetie!
If you read this it’s because I’m in heaven. Yes, in heaven, because I know I will go there and I’ll meet you there one day, in many, many years, because you are going to live a very long and happy life before you come and meet me.
I’m so happy to have met you and I promise that I will take care of you from heaven. I will pray for you and I will look after you from there. I promise that. I haven’t seen or touched you physically in this world but I will in heaven. And will party surrounded by glory!
Please, live happily because I don’t like sadness. Sadness is for those who lose hope and we have to bear in mind that this life is full of wonderful events and hope. And full of great people like you! Always remember you are unique: the only human being like you that exists and without which this world would be totally different. You’re a masterpiece. We all are. God’s rare and fragile masterpieces! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your love, your support and your patience with me throughout these past months. I learned to cherish and love you. I learned to observe and to dwell in peace. I learned that one must live every instant as if it were the last one and to give out as much love to others as one can. Make your heart a home for every loving thought, as you have done with me. I will always bless you. Whatever you do, do it with love.
Don’t cry, don’t be sad. I’m going to a place, I’m sure, where Spring is always bright, breezy and warm and where love will always surround me. I’m prepared. I’ve told my mom, my sisters and friends like you that I take nothing with me but love. I’m so full of happiness and gratitude. I feel so warm inside my heart. I’ll be there for you always. When you look up to heaven I’ll be the brightest star for you and I’ll shine to make you smile, to always comfort you, to always remind you we’re not alone. God dwells right inside us, warming our souls with His light and helping us to grow, to live, to love.
I’ll see you there. I’ll be right inside your heart as you are right inside mine. I won’t say good-bye, I’ll just say “See you” in around 100 years! And when you come I’ll lead you so you won’t get lost! I want you to live happy, full of love and full of blessing. You are part of that marvelous landscape that I’ll carry with me throughout eternity.
It is such a spectacular and touching message! I am moved even reading it as a third party. You must have touched his heart and life! Treasure the memories, but don't penalise yourself as you are always blessed.
It is indeed very touching. The one thing we all want to know when our loved ones go is how happy they are, and how we have made them happy when they were alive. That note reinforces that for all you've done - it's love he's felt and love he'll give.